chain reaction.
a rough night..
you had no right to do what you did to me. i didn’t do anything wrong nor did i say anything directly to you for you to react how you did. don’t you know it’s okay for me to be upset? don’t you know i’m allowed to have feelings? maybe you don’t know.. maybe you haven’t figured it out yet because you’re still not used to having to take care of me. well.. you better figure it out quick. what happened tonight could have all been avoided. you didn’t need to get physical with me.. you didn’t need to scream and yell at me.. you didn’t need to yell at my brother and try to fight him too.. none of it needed to happen. all you needed to do was just leave me alone. leave me to my feelings. i was allowed to be upset after you didn’t listen to me… but i didn’t even say anything to you. i didn’t talk back.. i didn’t yell.. i didn’t even acknowledge you.. and i didn’t want you to acknowledge me. i’m thankful joe was there to keep me safe in the aftermath.. and that he consoled me while i cried in his arms.. i’m glad that he was there.. and that i was not alone through all of it.. but you crossed the line tonight, dad. what you did was not okay. i’m your daughter. i’m a human being. i know i don’t deserve to be hit.. ever. say what you want. tell me it’s how you were brought up. tell me it’s discipline. tell me about how you have temper issues. tell me how it’s your house and i just need to listen. tell me how everything has to be your way. tell me i was wrong to get mad. either way, dad… there’s no excuse for what you did.
